Tuesday, March 23, 2010

I'm Bursting!

Have you ever felt frustrated and couldn't pinpoint the exact reason?

Aside from being unemployed, which is a frustration in itself, I knew that something else was causing this feeling. So, I brought out a 1000 piece puzzle and sat and quietly fitting in pieces. Boo came past and said, "Whatcha doing?" My reply, "I'm thinking." And I was.

It was like a light came on after awhile. I thought about how in the past, creating was my joy! I lived and loved to create...new recipes, new drawings, new poems, new songs...anything I could create, I did.

That's when I discovered that I'm not frustrated, I'm bursting! Bursting is when the creativity is trying to come through but is being kept still and quiet instead. Sometimes, my thoughts are swirling like 110 mph and all I can do is push them back until I "make time" for them.

At the time when I was at my most creative points was when I had a successful daycare and pre-preschool program. I was able to spend family time with my daughters AND create. That sense of completion of a project was a glorious feeling.

In realizing this, I now have a new outlook on creating. No more pushing it aside...I'm giving in to the feelings of bursting. It is in that place where I now know that He speaks to me. I am alive again.

PS--Thank you all for your comments yesterday on the post about reading Black children's books. I read them all and was encouraged.

21 comments:

Nezzy said...

Go forth Simone, burst baby burst. Then share your creativity will all of us, believe me....we'll be thrilled!

You have yourself a wonderfully blessed day!!!

Ina in Alaska said...

You are blooming now.... things are going to get exciting around here!!! xoxo

Deidra said...

I'm so glad you've figured it out! I know first-hand about your wonderful creativity. The beautiful figurine you created for H and me sits on my mantel and home. Visitors always comment about how great it is. I am blessed to have one of your original creations.

I'm catching up on my blog reading, and I just read your post for yesterday. I especially loved Ina's comment. And I will be the very first to buy your children's book!

JennyMac said...

Burst away! Love this expression. And dont bottle up that creativity..let it burst forth and shine!

Erin said...

I feel like I'm on the verge of bursting, too. But it's because I've eaten too many Cheezits.
;-)

Frau said...

When you are as creative as you there is no caging it release yourself and create.

Menopausal New Mom said...

Wow! Can't wait to read what activities you come up with, yes, let it out!!! I find the same "thinking" opportunity while taking a long drive somewhere by myself, which doesn't happen nearly enough.

Bagman and Butler said...

Absolutely!! I really get this. Happens quite a lot to me. I apologize for this metaphor but it is kind of like creativity constipation...and such relief when...too much metaphor, I know.

Fragrant Liar said...

I think being in creative mode is being as in touch with the universe as one can be.

Glad you have connected up!

Life with Kaishon said...

I love this! I love that you discovered this about yourself! I hope you will be back at creating and developing soon!

Lin said...

I felt like that for a very long time and I did create--quilted, knitted, x-stitched, sewed, etc. but still there was something missing and I couldn't put my finger on it. When I started writing again, I felt so much better. It was cathartic to get my stories out, to have an outlet, to share my feelings and emotions. My blog has helped me a ton, so I hope that you find your outlet.

And I have to say that you have been given this time to do that. I know unemployment is horrible, but why not make the best of it! Go, Simone, go!!!

Andrea said...

Hope you have an awesome day.
Blessings,
andrea

Redbonegirl97 said...

Glad your creativity is bursting. I wish my creativity would just pop let alone burst.

Tiffany
http://liferequiresmorechocolate.blogspot.com

Buckeroomama said...

I'll have to second what Nezzy wrote -- Burst, baby, burst!! :)

My name is PJ. said...

first - If you write any book, I will buy it. That's the truth. I love your unique voice.

As I was reading your post today, I thought, she's 'constipated'. It was as though the 1000 pc puzzle was the fiber you needed to get things flowing again. Okay, okay, it sounds a little scatological on the surface, but when you think about it......

Kwana said...

What a great outlook. You are such a creative soul that you have to create. Burst away!

Farila said...

Is this bursting going to be like a mini big bang creating a small universe of poems, stories, recipes etc? Waiting for the sound of bursting...

Tee aka The Diva's Thoughts said...

Congrats on figuring out was wrong wrong.

I wish I was a creative person but I'm not that creative.

blueviolet said...

I am so excited that you're bursting and that you're going to let it all out. Share every bit of it with us! :)

Danica said...

Get creating!!!

Veronica Lee said...

Way to go, Simone!!!

Burst away!!!

 

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