My Sissy and I

Ever since I can remember, there's always been not one but two. In fact, I wouldn't know what to do without my other half, my twin sister. Everywhere she went, I went. My earliest memory is of her feeding me flowers, although she would deny it and tell me that it was my idea and she was the one being coerced. Just like it was "my" idea to catch bees, getting stung and all and coloring on the walls.

When she hurt, I hurt. When she cried, I cried. The very first time we were separated was in kindergarten. According to state laws, twins weren't allowed to be placed in the same classroom. So off she went to her own classroom and I went my way. The day was the beginning of sheer panic for me. What would I do without her? Who would keep me company when I went potty? Who would laugh at my jokes that only her and I got? That was the day that I began wetting my pants. I couldn't explain it but I was crying out to be back together again with my twin. Finally, the teacher relented and I was able to go into her class for reading. Together again, the two of us. As luck would have it, we were in the same classes from first grade until we graduated in high school.

Then, the day came that I had to say goodbye to the two of us. It was her wedding day. I smiled and laughed on the outside but it took every ounce of strength not to scream and cry loudly. As she left for their honeymoon and I went home to change out of my "wedding" clothes. I broke down and cried for the both of us. No longer would there be late night conversations about cute guys, television shows and the latest fashions and music. No longer would I wake up and tell her what I dreamed the night before. Who would drive while I shifted the gears?

All in all, this has been a journey...she has been here with me through my marriage, my kids births and now divorce. She has held my hand as I vented over the loss of happily ever after. In spite of all the changes, one thing remains true, there will never be a deeper love than the love I have for my twin sister, my very best friend.