There are words that appear in a cloud over my head like a comic strip. Here are those words...
I have loved much of my life here in California. There have been some tough times that even blogging wouldn't do justice. Aside from being unemployed, I've had to Let GO of things that I hold close to me because the lack of money and because it was time. One of those things that I Let Go was my piano. Have you ever had something that you know is an object yet, it heals and restores and quiets you? That was the piano. The good thing is that I know deep inside my heart, that I will one day have another and I will once again make beautiful music. For now, it's bringing joy to another family's hearts and that makes me happy.
I am Learning that all relationships aren't forever. I'm having to let go of a love that has been a part of my life for three years. I know in my heart that it's for the best. But, with Letting Go of that love also comes the gut wrenching releasing of Baby Boo. She will always know that she has been loved beyond measure by Momo. I plan to stay in her life as much as I can, from afar. But, the Letting Go causes such a sharp pain in my heart...I can only know it as heartbreak.
I'm Leaving with my held high. I'm Leaving to start my life new in a place that I know feels right and I pray, is right. I'm heading to Portland, Oregon where I know that I will Love again. I will find my wings and fly once more. More than anything, I'm seeking creativity and peace and contentment, and I believe that that's the direction I'm headed in.
I'm not Leaving alone. I'll have Single Boo as my daughter in crime coming along with me. Together we will find our way again; I know we will. Then of course, there's the two furry four legged kids that will also be accompanying us on our new adventures. (Nothing like having more things to blog about, right?)
One more thing, the moment I shut the door to my home for the last time, I'm going to look past the tears and smile. I'm not running away; I'm Leaping. In Leaping, there comes deep faith in that where I land, He will catch me.
I will be offline after Wednesday but I will be back after I settle in. If you live in or close to Portland, please ship an email off to me. I could use a few friends!
Thanks for hanging out with me in spite of my sporadic blogging. I so heart all of you!
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