I got lost in the "what could be" instead of the "what was". I failed to see that that "what was" wasn't pretty at all. Sure, he was handsome but the outer shell doesn't always reflect the inner heart. I kicked myself for being naive and making bad choices. But, I came up with the answer....I'm human but I'm better than this.
I will get past the shock of being used and stolen from. (Yes, the bank has been alerted about the fraud and then there's a police report as well.......)
It's just the heart that is wounded. How can someone hurt another without flinching or feeling the conviction of wrong doing?
On top of it, I cross paths daily with someone who is downright rude and hateful. My outer smile doesn't reflect the biting of the tongue that she brings out in me. I have cried tears from the stress of dealing with her day to day. Yet, somehow, I know that I am better than this.
No one has permission to steal my joy.
I have found that in spite of things that go wrong in my life, there are things that go right...many things.
Thanks to Miss Kris, she is blessing me and my daughter with much needed things that we left behind in California. No longer going to the laundromat will be the greatest thing ever. Also, having a couch to sit on and relax with...another blessing. It's blessings like those that remind me that I am better than this. I will not allow anyone to steal my joy.