8 seconds

I can't understand how or why things happen the way they do. But what I do know now is no matter what happens, life goes on.

I was discharged from the hospital yesterday and not wanting to sound overly dramatic, still recovering from the trauma.

I went in with chest pains and during the course of those chest pains, my heart stopped. 8 seconds where my heart flat-lined and I was "gone".

When I was brought back, I looked for J. I needed to know he was close by. I needed his calm assurance that it was going to be okay.

Next, I tried to process what happened while I was gone. I know for sure that while I was struggling, life was going on for everyone around me. All across the blogging world, in countries everywhere, life was going on. The world wasn't changed by what I was experiencing but I decided that I was going to change things as a result of what I experienced.

I can't describe, what I felt. There are no words yet. I'm not even sure I'm quite up to making much sense right now. :)

But I'm here and I appreciate you all for your prayers and words of encouragement.

Thanks for being here.

Comments

Mari said…
Simone - I'm so glad you are here! In the realm of things I haven't known you long, but I've been so blessed by getting to know you here in blogland. It's funny how you can feel as if you are friends with someone you've never met in person, but I feel that with you.
I'm glad you are out of the hospital and will be praying for full recovery and for the Dr's to figure out what is causing these issues.
Love you!
January 30, 2012 at 3:33 PM
Dawna said…
Simone.. didn't realise!!.. hope you are feeling much better and continue to grow in strength and good health.. prayers go out to you sis!!.. J .. and the family
Speedy recovery x
January 30, 2012 at 4:28 PM
Liz Mays said…
This is terrifying. I am so grateful that you're still here, and I pray that whatever happened will be taken care of and that your health is restored!
January 30, 2012 at 4:42 PM
Lin said…
Oh my GOSH! What is going on??? Criminy, pally, don't be doing this stuff for excitement--we need you here and healthy!!

I'm adding you to the prayer list, so I hope you get this figured out FAST!
January 30, 2012 at 5:08 PM
Brian Miller said…
omg...that is crazy...i am glad that you are better...that is terribly frightening...
January 30, 2012 at 5:16 PM
Sweet Tea said…
No way!
Simone, what are the docs telling you?
Sooooooo thankful it was not your time - God bless those who cared for you!!! I'm gonna add you to my prayer list.
January 30, 2012 at 5:18 PM
Debby@Just Breathe said…
I can't believe it! So glad you are still here with us. I will definitely keep you in my prayers.
((HUGS))
January 30, 2012 at 5:24 PM
Leslie Basil Payne said…
May I say "Amen" to everything Mari said.

You are in my prayers, dear friend and you will continue to be. We will pray for wisdom for the doctors, and peace and protection for you and J. Sending you gentle hugs across the country.
January 30, 2012 at 5:33 PM
Ina in Alaska said…
Oh no! I am so sorry!! Hope they can figure out what's happening to you!
January 30, 2012 at 6:18 PM
Unknown said…
I pray that the doctors will discover the cause and get you on track for a speedy recovery.
January 30, 2012 at 6:26 PM
Linda Myers said…
Welcome back, Simone.
January 30, 2012 at 8:28 PM
Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said…
So glad you are OK....How scary....Praying that you are totally well soon....Hugs
January 31, 2012 at 12:18 AM
Nezzy (Cow Patty Surprise) said…
Geese Louise, don't go pullin' this stuff on us girl. I'm so glad you came back!

Do the doctors have any idea what's goin' on with you sweetie???

I can't imagine how scary this is for you. Know that my heart and prayers are with you and God touches you in a mighty way.

I just want to hug you right now.

God bless, take care and let me know if I can do anything.
January 31, 2012 at 8:01 AM
Formerly known as Frau said…
Thank god you went to the hospital I hate to think how this could have gone other wise. Take it easy and get better.....rest! xo
January 31, 2012 at 8:45 AM
Anonymous said…
Oh, my God, I just read your blog, 8 seconds, what a terrible thing to happen to you..praying they can find (doctors) what happened, maybe it was a big fluke, that it just happened..maybe it was just something that happened, hoping you are on the mend and that life will return to some normal soon..Lots of good thoughts sent out to you and prayers...mjs from the west coast not too far from where you are actually living!.....
January 31, 2012 at 10:32 PM
Anonymous said…
Wow how scary is that....Thank goodness you still here with us only God knows why he puts us through trials but you made it. Take it easy get well soon.
February 2, 2012 at 3:41 AM
Connie said…
So glad you are back and resting. I'm sure you have lots of questions and maybe a few answers at this time. Try to rest - let the Doctors do their work and have faith that things will turn out okay. My prayers go with you.
February 2, 2012 at 4:18 PM
Sweet Tea said…
Stopping by to say Hello and check on you. I hope you've got some great meds that are workin' their magic on your sweet "heart" and you are feeling better and getting stronger each day. Praying for you!!
February 2, 2012 at 8:23 PM
dwblogs said…
Oh, dear one - I pray perfect healing, peace and patience for you. Please be kind to yourself and get all better! I have been blessed by your writing - thank you!
February 3, 2012 at 7:33 PM
Just Stuff From a Boomer said…
Simone...You of all people have been making lemonade out of life's lemons. I am so glad you are here to be telling us this news. How scarey for all of you. god Bless you dear lady. My prayers are with you to stay well.
February 4, 2012 at 12:45 PM
Anita said…
When I read your comment on my post, I didn't realize, that "literally" your heart stopped. Where was my mind?

That had to be scary to hear that you were flat-lined for 8 seconds.

PLEASE stay on the doctors for extensive testing.

And PLEASE take care of yourself.

May God bless you and your family.
February 4, 2012 at 7:44 PM
Annesphamily said…
Oh My Goodness! What a terrible scary experience. You take care of you! I feel like I know you so well just because we share over here. I pray for good health to return and for your doctors to know what is causing this. You are such a darling lady! I so love knowing you. Prayers for the family too. It is always a difficult time when we are in stressful situations regarding our health. You take care and let us know how you are doing. Love to you and many blessings Anne
February 4, 2012 at 9:08 PM
Helene said…
Oh wow, that is super scary! I'm so glad you're still here with us. Sending many healing prayers your way...
February 6, 2012 at 1:34 PM
Jenny said…
Wow. This must have been incredibly scary. I can't even imagine. And you are so young! Take gentle care of yourself...sending prayers of healing your way.
February 6, 2012 at 2:55 PM
Jenny said…
Wow. This must have been incredibly scary. I can't even imagine. And you are so young! Take gentle care of yourself...sending prayers of healing your way.
February 6, 2012 at 2:55 PM
Annesphamily said…
God Bless You! You are such a bright light here. Take care of you and get healthy!
March 13, 2012 at 9:16 PM
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