One of the Nicest People on this Earth
I got an email from one of my friends who has been a blogger friend for as long as I've been blogging and that's what she said.
Who me? Are you serious?
I was touched and humbled but I don't feel like I fit that description at all. I mean, sure I do nice things...like at this moment, I'm on an eating strike in solidarity with J who is prepping for a colonoscopy. (I want him to feel like he's not alone in the torture.) But, that's not always the case.
In fact, I have some honest confessions to make:
* I can get feisty. Ask J. He'll tell you. He calls it being ornery (just a nice way of saying that I'm being a pain in the butt.)
* Being a bonus mom has been much more challenging than I thought. I like things neat and clean and the minute the kids leave stuff a mess, then I growl or bottle my frustration up inside, seething as I toss and turn.
* I can be a penny-pincher. I would rather save money than spend it. Some people may call that being miserly but I just don't like the idea of spending 18.00 on something that I could've bought and cooked for half the cost.
* I get impatient often. I want things to happen yesterday.
* I can get grouchy over little things that may not be a big deal at all.
* I don't tolerate know it all's too well and sometimes I say, "Shut up" in my head when they are talking.
* I totally have no tolerance for bratty kids at a store. I sometimes give them the stink eye to make them stop.
* I say no thank you often to cute little girl scouts selling cookies.
* I fight enviousness with a vengeance.
* I blow things out of proportion at times. (Not lie...just exaggerate.)
* I have a huge problem with stress eating.
* I sometimes want to have my cake and eat it too.
* I call myself names...nerd, dummy, etc.
* I smile on the outside even when I don't feel like smiling at all.
* I put on a tough exterior even though I'm ready to crumble into a ball.
* I read and study the Bible less than I do other things...not making God first priority.
* I vent - A LOT!!
* I actually have a hard time believing that I'm a nice person. There's way too much that I need work on in my life.
* I dread that you all are going to tell me that I'm nice just because you think that's what I want to hear.
But, to make me feel better, what is one thing that you wish you could erase from the person that you are?
Who me? Are you serious?
I was touched and humbled but I don't feel like I fit that description at all. I mean, sure I do nice things...like at this moment, I'm on an eating strike in solidarity with J who is prepping for a colonoscopy. (I want him to feel like he's not alone in the torture.) But, that's not always the case.
In fact, I have some honest confessions to make:
* I can get feisty. Ask J. He'll tell you. He calls it being ornery (just a nice way of saying that I'm being a pain in the butt.)
* Being a bonus mom has been much more challenging than I thought. I like things neat and clean and the minute the kids leave stuff a mess, then I growl or bottle my frustration up inside, seething as I toss and turn.
* I can be a penny-pincher. I would rather save money than spend it. Some people may call that being miserly but I just don't like the idea of spending 18.00 on something that I could've bought and cooked for half the cost.
* I get impatient often. I want things to happen yesterday.
* I can get grouchy over little things that may not be a big deal at all.
* I don't tolerate know it all's too well and sometimes I say, "Shut up" in my head when they are talking.
* I totally have no tolerance for bratty kids at a store. I sometimes give them the stink eye to make them stop.
* I say no thank you often to cute little girl scouts selling cookies.
* I fight enviousness with a vengeance.
* I blow things out of proportion at times. (Not lie...just exaggerate.)
* I have a huge problem with stress eating.
* I sometimes want to have my cake and eat it too.
* I call myself names...nerd, dummy, etc.
* I smile on the outside even when I don't feel like smiling at all.
* I put on a tough exterior even though I'm ready to crumble into a ball.
* I read and study the Bible less than I do other things...not making God first priority.
* I vent - A LOT!!
* I actually have a hard time believing that I'm a nice person. There's way too much that I need work on in my life.
* I dread that you all are going to tell me that I'm nice just because you think that's what I want to hear.
But, to make me feel better, what is one thing that you wish you could erase from the person that you are?
Comments
That being said. I think you are one of the nicest people, even though we share some of these faults. They just make you human. :)
And yes, I believe you are nice.
Not because that is what you want to hear (although I hope you do!)but because this is just a "minus" list. Also known as the human factor.
Looking over your past posts there are too many "pluses" to count on how thoughtful & conscientious you are to and about others!
And never have you left anything but positive words on my blog!!
And so I will continue to believe as I do-that you are just nice!
I'm trying to be "more tolerant with people".
Oh glory girl...my list is long. I surprise folks when I tell 'em I have a temper 'cause on the outside I'm calm, I have no patience...want everything yesterday..this also surprised others. Aren't we great at puttin' on the masks!!!
I know we are suppose to love our enemies but there are a few that just burr my skin' every time I'm near 'em. I won't go on...but I could!!! 'Nuff said!
I'm gonna tell ya sweet sister in Christ...your sure not alone here! Not a one is us even comes close to perfect. We'll let Jesus take that honor!!!
God bless and enjoy your imperfect day dear heart! :o)
Sandie
One thing a never regret spending money on is vacations. I can see that those memories will be valuable once we are older and don't have as much $$ coming in to use for that. (I'm already 61... good thing Terry's 5 years younger.) :)
Venting or not, I'd have to agree with your friend, though.
Do have a go at your list again and think if for every item there you could think of an instance where you were *not* that... I challenge you to draw up a list on why you *are* one of the nicest people on this earth. It doesn't come easily for us to toot our own horn, so if you don't want to publish that list, that's okay, but go do make up that list... and accept that you *are* one of the nicest people on this earth. :)
Probably the one thing I'd like to change about myself is my impatience. I wish I could be a more patient person but I'm just not. Never have been and probably never will be!
The one thing that's differet about me is that I spend too much money instead of penny pinch. I'd like to change that for sure. I don't necessarily want to penny pinch but I'd like to be smarter about my spending.
Your honest is refreshing. All the things that you list are not so bad though. Nothing to be worried about as you are human!
But, if I "must," I'd change my procrastinating ways. I'd priortize; do the necessary things first, then go from there.
Life is short - we will never measure up to Jesus, as Nezzy said. So, when you're struggling with a flaw, forgive yourself immediately, tell yourself you'll do better next time (and try to), and then have a slice of cake... or whatever your pleasure is. You may have to repeat this daily, or even hourly, but you'll have more fun. lol