Thursday, June 21, 2012

Where I've been and Where I'm Going

I'd love to make up some exotic place and describe the sights, the smells the tastes the sounds but it would be nothing but lies. I've been here....here in Oregon that is. But, like Dorothy being tornadoed into the land of Oz, I feel like that has been my life.

I yearn to write blog posts. I store them all inside of this head of mine but by morning, they have disappeared like dandelions, scattering their dust to a point of no return. But I'm still here. Maybe different in a lot of ways, but I'm still here.

The journeys are different...scary, exciting, unpredictable, breathtaking.

On July 11th, I will be having surgery. It will be, hopefully, the end of feeling under the weather and not like the me I used to be. I won't lie and say that I'm not afraid because I am. The surgery doesn't scare me; the recovery does. Almost 8 weeks of liquefied and pureed food sends my heart beating pretty fast. But, the outcome will be great so for that, I'm excited.

On July 1st, I will be speaking for the youth group at my church. This is something I have always felt the most comfortable with....talking before large groups of people. I still haven't figured out why it doesn't send me into the bathroom, shaking and quivering and never wanting to show my face again but it just seems like something I can't wait to do. I will be talking about vulnerability...thanks to all of you for your comments and encouraging words. I really believe that there are some teens that need to hear it too.

I'm also taking a leap in getting back into writing and painting and sketching again. I have been on hiatus from drawing long enough. The recovery time will be the perfect opportunity to dust off the paint brushes.

I also intend to look at the flowers blooming, listen to the birds singing and smell the fragrance of rain or freshly mowed grass. I look forward to feeling J's hand in mine as we celebrate our first anniversary together.

So many things to look forward to but God knows that I couldn't do it without my friends coming along for the ride. Thank you for being a part of my life!

20 comments:

Formerly known as Frau said...

I'm excited for you to have your talk with the teens...I know you will touch many of them, your relationship with your girls is so special and I know you are pack full of wisdom! 8 weeks of healing and creative juices flowing....enjoy every minute. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for your surgery and recovery. Happy Anniversary! xo

Brian Miller said...

cool....i always have fun talking to the youth group....and pureed food scares me at times as well...smiles....you will come through it wonderfully....

Shelly said...

I will be praying for you, Simone, in this time that your body is healing and your soul is rejuvenating. I know the Lord will accomplish His plans and His purposes in you during this time.

Mari said...

I would be scared stiff to give this talk - I'm proud of you for doing it with joy!
Praying this time of recuperation is also a time that allows rest for your spirit as well!

Ina in Alaska said...

We are always here Simone. I will keep you in my heart. You are such a beautiful soul.

Leslie Payne said...

This is an anniversary you will remember decades from now! :0) I agree that surgery is scary, but we all will pray for your healing, health, and solving the problem that has plagued you. The teens will love you!

Debby@Just Breathe said...

So much going on in your life.
Happy Anniversary!
I will keep you in my thought and prayers. ((HUGS))

Chatty Crone said...

Happy anniversary to you. I am not sure what the surgery is but I wish and pray you the best of luck! That is a long time without solid food but you can do it! sandie

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Praying for you.....and knowing you are going to be fine

Stacy said...

I'd love to be there for your talk with the teens to see you in action. I don't doubt for a moment that your message will touch them.

Liquid food for 8 weeks?! Ohhhh my. I will be keeping you in my prayers.

Sweet Tea said...

I'm totally confused. I'm trying to connect the dots and in doing so I'm thinking the surgery is in regards to your heart, which would also explain the long recovery time. I am so sorry it is necessary for you to go through this, Simone. That is very frightning, but I know the results are life-saving and will give you ypur life back. (((HUGS))). I don't understand the connection of "talking to the teens", but admire anyone who has wisdom to share and steps forward to share. GREAT!! I am keeping you on my Prayer List!

BerryMorins Bits & Tips said...

You can do it girl! I have faith in you.

Joanna Jenkins said...

Hi Simone, You know I will be saying extra prayers for you on July 11th and through all the days of your recovery. Be kind to yourself and take it easy.

The kids you will be talking to are in for a treat-- That I know for sure.

You're first anniversary already-- Further proof that time really does fly.

Be well. BIg hugs...
xo jj

Connie said...

Praying that the surgery will go well and recovery will come right along. Talking in front of alot people - oh my - I would be terrified. Good for you doing it!

Just Stuff From a Boomer said...

You will be in my thoughts and prayers at surgery time.

I agree that you have a lot to share with teens, having raised your own and having them become such remarkable adults. It's a wonderful thing to have your children become your friends isn't it.

I'll be thinking of you...

Petula Wright said...

Everything will go fine with your recovery. Just pretend that you're having your favorite milkshake or something else totally yummy that you love. That should get you through the first day or two! LOL... I'm just kidding! You can do it; just put the same energy and feeling into it that you put into speaking to those youth. :-)

Adam said...

good luck on your surgery, hope all goes well.

Anita said...

How'd that speech go today! I'm sure it went well and that you imparted some great wisdom to your listeners.

I'm praying for super-natural results from your surgery.

Jill said...

Simone,

I will certainly be keeping you in my prayers for everything to go well and a quick healing time. Sending big hugs to you!

Blessings,
Jill

Annmarie Pipa said...

good luck with everything coming up! and thank you for your leadership with teens..they definitely need it!
happy anniversary.