I am not tough enough. I write blog posts that make it seem as if I have it all together (at times) and honestly, I am far from it. I am at a hard spot right now. There have been some complications in the surgery and once again, I may end up back in the hospital. This will make it three times in three weeks. I have snotted and cried and called out to God so many times, I'm sure he's wanting to change his name to Joe. I don't understand why things happen as they do but they do. I am showing you my stuff here. Last night, after crying through bouts of nausea and pain, J held me. I couldn't help but think I was a burden...that he didn't sign up for "this". He reassured me that I was his joy and not even close to a burden. I have blogged years now and some of you have been with me from the beginning. I have tried to reveal the real me but at the moment, the real me is a sniffling mess. I am holding on to the positives though. I have a husband that ...

I love birthdays! I don't dread getting older. In fact, I actually embrace another adventurous year and look forward to living life with abundant joy. Yesterday, Simone and I had a chance to enjoy a little girly time. Even though she was still somewhat groggy, my twin sis made an effort to enjoy the short remaining time we had left of my visit. The one thing about the two of us being together is that we will either find trouble or trouble will find us. When we're together, it's like there's an unwritten rule that we WILL get into mischief. Simone brings out my sense of daring. Maybe because I know that she has my back and that if I ever ended up handcuffed and carted off to jail, she would easily don a matching pair of cuffs so that I wouldn't face confinement alone. Yesterday I raided the the medical supply cabinet in Simone's hospital room to find goodies that had huge happiness potential. I had a blast whipping t...

Since Simone is currently laid up, I thought it would be perfectly fitting for me to step in. So, I'm kid..er..blog-napping Chocolate Covered Daydreams for a bit. Many of you know my twin sister and have faithfully followed her journey of self discovery, spirituality, marriage and family life. I bet you've already realized that she is THE most amazing woman in the world. Unfortunately, I am writing this as I sit beside Simone's hospital bed. Truth is, Simone suffers from "bad timing" syndrome. Let me give you a recent account of the happenings. Warning: I am going on very little sleep so I may ramble a bit and misspell a few words, so bear with me. As you may remember, Simone recently underwent fundif...never mind, I can't remember what the actual name of the surgery is but I do know that it was to treat hiatal hernias. She had been recuperating; dealing with a total liquid di...

I made it through the surgery but dealing with lots of pain right now. I was worried about eating a full liquid diet for weeks but I really don't feel hungry as much as I am tired. I know that this too shall pass. The doctor says that the surgery was a success and for that, I am so thankful. I look forward to being able to visit with all of you soon. Thank you again!!

I'm here for a quick minute. Just an update...youth group was great. I felt really at ease talking to the teens. I hope that some seeds were planted. I'm going to be out for a bit....reminding you all to keep me in your prayers on Wednesday...surgery time. I will be back when I am feeling up to being online. In the meantime, here's a glimpse of my life in pictures lately.  Talk to you all soon!