I am at a hard spot right now. There have been some complications in the surgery and once again, I may end up back in the hospital. This will make it three times in three weeks.
I have snotted and cried and called out to God so many times, I'm sure he's wanting to change his name to Joe. I don't understand why things happen as they do but they do.
I am showing you my stuff here.
Last night, after crying through bouts of nausea and pain, J held me. I couldn't help but think I was a burden...that he didn't sign up for "this". He reassured me that I was his joy and not even close to a burden.
I have blogged years now and some of you have been with me from the beginning. I have tried to reveal the real me but at the moment, the real me is a sniffling mess.
I am holding on to the positives though. I have a husband that so loves me.
My family would be nuts without me.
I would miss out on some pretty great things coming up...
My baby girl getting married
A camping trip
A Women of Faith Conference
A chance to eat a slice of pizza oozing with cheese.
As I lay in J's arms last night, I asked him to sing the song that is his favorite. He began to sing it to me until I relaxed in his arms.