Last Night I Cried
I cried even though my big brother would've called me a wimp for shedding tears over him.
I cried because I realized that I no longer have a big brother to lean on, laugh with, gain wisdom from and to share the greatest joys in my life.
I cried because Craig made my twin sister and I a part of his world. From him, we learned wrestling moves (he was a wrestling coach), to laugh at life and not waste time on B.S. He valued us and proudly called us his little sisters.
As I cried, I reminisced over the one night when I was sound asleep in my bedroom when there was a knock on my window. Then another harder knock. Then a high pitched voice. I bolted to my sister's room, shaking. We both hesitantly went back to my room to bravely look out the window. It was Craig. After a wrestling victory celebration, having lost his voice from yelling and cheering and have quite a few brews, he came to share with victory with my sister and I. We laughed out of sheer relief. Last night, I cried at that memory.
I cried for his children. I cried for his dream of opening up a high end restaurant with live jazz music that wouldn't come to life. I cried because millions of others who's lives he touched, will miss him too.
Today, I'm done crying (I think). I know Craig wouldn't want the tears. He'd want the laughter. So today, I'm going to laugh. I'm going to see the sky as bluer than blue. I'm going to smell the air and take in it's fragrance. And sing one of Craig's favorite songs louder than loud, "Whip it, whip it good!"
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It's okay to cry. We all cry, that is a healthy part of mourning the loss of someone whom we love.
The good part, you carry Craig in your heart and mind. You have all of these wonderful memories that are like books on a shelf, and when you want to read a chapter of that part of his life, you pull that memory down and go back through it. He will always be with you, he is the brightest star shining in the sky that you can find. Moma told me once, that when we pass and go to heaven, we all hang our star and that is why the heavens are so full of stars. If you go out tonight and search you will find Craig twinkling down on you.
God Bless you sweet friend. Keep reading chapters, and as Craig would say "Whip it good."
Country hugs and love, Sherry
Have a wonderfully blessed day!!!
BTW, Devo is one of my favorite bands and I could crack that whip right on cue with that song today if I heard it!
Crying is part of good grief. I truly believe God gave us tears to help us heal. My prayers are with you, my friend.
Sending you hugs.
I did a dance to Whip It! when I was in high school. What a fun song!
REALLY sorry.
I wanna cry and I didn't even know Craig, but after reading your thoughts about him I can understand what a BIG loss this is to everyone that had the pleasure to know him.
So that's a long way of saying, I cried when I read your post and now I'm laughing with you and wishing I had met your brother. He sounds like an amazing guy.
xoxox
Cry as much and as long as you need.
((hugs))