My heart has broken





I lost my precious boy, Sam on Saturday to liver cancer. As sudden as it was....he was fine last Sunday and by Monday, he was struggling. I have so many wishes.

I wish I could've held him and kissed him a million more times.

I wish I would've been able to play with him and his squeak squeak instead of being absorbed in the typical busyness of life.

I wish I would've told him over and over again how much he changed my life.

Nine years ago, Sam was etched into my heart. I called him the Million Dollar Dog because he had so many close brushes with death, yet, he was resilient and tough. He gave and gave, even when at times, I knew he was too tired to give.

My Termite Inspector was and will be missed beyond words. I really don't know how I will find life okay without him because he was such an integral part of my heart.

For now, all I can say is I love you, My Sam. You are my number one boy!

Comments

Mari said…
I'm so sorry Simone! Our pets are truly part of our family and it's so painful to lose them. I'll be praying for you.
May 9, 2011 at 4:09 AM
Formerly known as Frau said…
I'm so deeply sorry for your loss. ((hugs))
May 9, 2011 at 4:11 AM
Nezzy (Cow Patty Surprise) said…
Oh sweetie, I am so sorry for your loss. Pet's truly do become family in our hearts. My prayers are with you my friend.

God bless and have a peaceful day!
May 9, 2011 at 5:30 AM
Unknown said…
I'm so sorry for your loss!
May 9, 2011 at 5:41 AM
Kwana said…
Oh I am so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you. I'm sending love and hugs your way today.
May 9, 2011 at 5:56 AM
Unknown said…
I'm so sorry, Simone. By your post, it seemed though he didn't suffer long and that is something to be grateful for. I lost my dog suddenly, knowing something had to be wrong. Took him to the vet who said that his pain had to be severe and wouldn't even let me bring him home. Went for a check up and came home alone. I know how you feel with the suddenness of the loss. I just prayed for you.
May 9, 2011 at 6:44 AM
Buckeroomama said…
Oh, Simone --I'm so sorry! {{hugs}}
May 9, 2011 at 8:29 AM
Brian Miller said…
((hugs)) sorry...dogs are such a part of the family...
May 9, 2011 at 8:32 AM
Stacy said…
I'm so sorry for your loss Simone. Our puppies are part of our families and our hearts.
May 9, 2011 at 9:56 AM
Debby@Just Breathe said…
My heart is heavy with your sorrow.
I am so sorry for your loss. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))
May 9, 2011 at 11:42 AM
twin2 said…
Sam has left an irreplaceable paw print on everyone's heart. He was such a sweet, gentle and loveable fur baby. My prayers are with you and your girls cause I know they were also touched by having Sam as a part of their lives.
May 9, 2011 at 4:38 PM
Anonymous said…
They are SO precious because they are so kind hearted and loving at all times, through all things.

I wish you could have held him longer and kissed him until his fur was wet.
May 9, 2011 at 7:16 PM
Sweet Tea said…
Your Sam was sooo cute and I can understand your broken heart. I.AM.SO.SORRY.
May 9, 2011 at 8:18 PM
Ocean Breezes and Country Sneezes said…
I'm very sorry for you loss, pets are part of the family, and I'm sure that little cutie pie was loved very much.
May 9, 2011 at 10:40 PM
Jill said…
My heart goes out to you....I know how very hard this is and how much they become a part of our family. Sending you hugs! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Blessings,
Jill
May 10, 2011 at 6:32 AM
Ina in Alaska said…
So so sorry, Simone! I know how heartbroken you feel, I have been in your shoes and will be there again. You provided Sam with a great life, and now you have an Angel Dog, forever in your heart. xoxoxo
May 10, 2011 at 7:41 AM
Carolyn said…
I'm so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.

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May 11, 2011 at 6:44 AM
Anonymous said…
I came back just to look at Sam. I'm so horribly sad for you. I had to go to Walmart today (I hate that place) and was thinking of you as I walked through. I knew the chances were you were either crying or exhausted from crying.
May 11, 2011 at 2:37 PM
Reyna said…
I am so sorry to hear about your precious loss.

I pray your heart may find peace and eventually healing.

I believe that heaven includes animals - as we are all God's creations. Which means we will some day be reunited.
May 11, 2011 at 11:38 PM
Deidra said…
Oh Simone! I had no idea. I'm so sorry...
May 13, 2011 at 11:53 AM
Veronica Lee said…
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel.

Sending you lots of hugs!
May 13, 2011 at 10:03 PM
People Who Know Me Would Say: said…
Oh my gosh, I just read this now Simone. I'm so sorry! So, so sorry! They're like our kids once our kids grow up, aren't they?

Sam will be waiting for you in heaven.
May 14, 2011 at 3:39 AM
Petula said…
I'm sorry to hear about your Sam. Through my blogging friends I have learned the attachment that grows to the animal family members. I don't have any pets, but I can understand how this will be quite an adjustment for you. Take time to reflect and think on all the happiness. I'm sure he loved you too.
May 14, 2011 at 10:10 AM
Joanna Jenkins said…
Oh Simone, My heart is breaking for you. Such a terrible loss of your sweet puppy. I am so sorry.
xxoo jj
May 14, 2011 at 3:54 PM
Unknown said…
I'm so sorry to hear about Sam. I'm praying for you.
May 14, 2011 at 7:55 PM
Lin said…
Oh, Simone, I'm so very sorry for the loss of your little friend. He was there for you through some tough times in your life and I'm sure you were very close to him. I hope you are okay through this difficult time--it's so hard to lose those little guys.

I'm sending love, hugs, and prayers, my friend.
May 15, 2011 at 10:07 AM
Donna B. said…
Oh Simone, I am so sorry and sad to hear this horrible news. No one loves us like our pets do. I am sending you prayers and hugs.
May 15, 2011 at 3:21 PM
Rhapsody Phoenix said…
Blessings....
my condolences on your lost. Think of all the years you had, the joy he brang and not of the fact that he is gone from the physical world. He is always with you in heart and spirit.

Peace...
Rhapsody
May 15, 2011 at 11:10 PM
Anonymous said…
I am so very sorry for your loss. Hugs and love. Losing our pets is like losing a piece of us. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
May 16, 2011 at 7:37 AM
Jill said…
Just wanted to stop back by and let you know I'm thinking of you! Also I thought the video I posted on my blog today would make you smile. It's the dad's dance my husband did at my daughter's recital Sat. night. Actually I'm pretty sure it will make you laugh... if you get a chance to see it let me know what you think.
Hugs,
Jill
May 16, 2011 at 12:29 PM
Anita said…
I'm so sorry about little Sam. I pray for peace and comfort for you as you grieve your loss and adjust to life without him.
May 19, 2011 at 10:19 AM
Unknown said…
Your Sam is so very beautiful. I am praying for you at this time. So heartbroken for you.
May 21, 2011 at 11:00 AM
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Ohh My GOD...its really shocking news..
i want to say you that believe on God who do this with you for something better...
June 2, 2011 at 9:09 AM
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