the biggest lesson learned is there is still grace in spite of it all.
My computer took a dive and breathed its last breath. I sat horrified. There was no warning, no burp or cough...just...silence.
I felt like Alexander having a horrible, no good, terrible day but mine was magnified times 2 million.
J wrapped his arms around me and said, "Honey, I'm sorry your day isn't going well. Is there something I can do to make it better?"
The grouchy me said, "I just want to punch a wall."
The loving, sweetheart J said, "Here, just punch me and you'll feel better."
I told him, "Nope. It would make me feel worse...way worse. I can't and won't hurt you." (Although my punch would've probably felt like a flea tickling him.)
So, he held me for a minute and the phone rang. In a minute, my bad day began to take a turn for the better. Jarebearboo blessed me with her laptop. Basically, she told me to get "quit my sniveling" and I did.
Then, both her and Married Boo came over to visit. In the short amount of time they were here, I realized just how much I miss them both. Life felt like my kind of normal for awhile. We laughed and they promised that we'd do a girls weekend and SOON.
I needed to remind myself that sometimes tears come before laughter.
Another thing that I've learned is that it may awhile before I find my "normal" here. When I do, it will be all that I've dreamed it would be.
PS--There's a new arrival on it's way. (hint...he's fluffy and has four legs and is darn cute! More on the new arrival soon to come.)