I'm back!! If the puppy can keep his teeth out of the power cords, that is....
I didn't anticipate it...it just happened out of nowhere. In fact, it was just like the commercial where the one person, eating out of a jar of peanut butter passes a person eating a chocolate bar and they collide.
"Hey! You got chocolate in my peanut butter!"
"You got peanut butter in my chocolate!"
Viola! Reese's Peanut Butter cups are a result.
My "collision" hasn't been half as delicious or simple. In fact, at times, it is akin to being a cast member on the Twilight Zone.
The Who I Used to Be was creative, carefree, ate a grilled cheese sandwich for dinner, watched reruns of old tv shows, painted, played Wii games, sung loud in the shower and slept in late or got up early.
The Who I Used to Be, was bold and courageous, not caring what others thought. WIUTB created new recipes, went to the Asian market and bought things because they looked like they might taste good.
The WIUTB also started and finished projects, played in the dirt and wrote in the blog daily. Procrastination wasn't a part of her vocabulary.
Then came the Who I am Now (WIAN). The walls of our "bedroom" reverberate from the loud tv. The door opens with, "What's for dinner? I'm hungry." Deep in thought, the Who I am Now can't focus to write a few sentences in the blog. She stares at the ceiling, praying for inspiration. The Who I am Now practices patience like never before but cries quickly when the house that was clean a few hours before is back to being messy again.
The Who I am Now longs to be liked and appreciated and respected. She also longs for creativity and the joy in being able to complete projects, be silly and even sit in the tub until the wrinkles appear.
The WIAN and the WIUTB have seen days that are blessings in many ways and others that have caused her to want to hibernate under warm blankets.
God doesn't give us more than we can handle and like the Playdoh that accidentally on purpose ended up in a bag filled with paints, I'm being molded and shaped into someone stronger, loving and kind.
How do you blend what used to be with what is?
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