The Dream that will Never Be
It was so vivid...my dream. I woke up what tears on my face as I realized that it was a dream that will never be.
It doesn't matter what the dream is to any of you because we all have dreams that we hold on to, wanting to see them unfold. But in my dream, I found an emotion, a contentment and peace that I haven't felt in a very long time. It's not to say that I'm not extremely happy with my life now because I am but....
This was a reminder. A realization.
It was only a dream to experience the sweetness and the realness at that moment - not to hold on to but to let it go.
Dreams are like our very own television show...created for our eyes only. We know the characters. We feel the emotions. We embrace every moment as it is happening because it matters. Knowing that, I'm surprised I don't go to sleep a lot earlier than I do, so that I can watch my "favorite" dream.
Now that I'm awake, the dream hasn't faded. The tears are still in my eyes as I realize that it was only a dream.
Do you dream dreams that will never happen yet you would like for them to?
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I am so sorry for not visiting you all. I can't describe right now how busy life has been for me. There is a lot going on - good stuff. But then, there are a few not so good stuffs that I'm also having to grab on to. One of those is that I will begin testing once again with a different cardiologist to find out the source of my chest pains that haven't gone away. I'm not worried much about it - just annoyed that I am starting all over again from the beginning.
It doesn't matter what the dream is to any of you because we all have dreams that we hold on to, wanting to see them unfold. But in my dream, I found an emotion, a contentment and peace that I haven't felt in a very long time. It's not to say that I'm not extremely happy with my life now because I am but....
This was a reminder. A realization.
It was only a dream to experience the sweetness and the realness at that moment - not to hold on to but to let it go.
Dreams are like our very own television show...created for our eyes only. We know the characters. We feel the emotions. We embrace every moment as it is happening because it matters. Knowing that, I'm surprised I don't go to sleep a lot earlier than I do, so that I can watch my "favorite" dream.
Now that I'm awake, the dream hasn't faded. The tears are still in my eyes as I realize that it was only a dream.
Do you dream dreams that will never happen yet you would like for them to?
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I am so sorry for not visiting you all. I can't describe right now how busy life has been for me. There is a lot going on - good stuff. But then, there are a few not so good stuffs that I'm also having to grab on to. One of those is that I will begin testing once again with a different cardiologist to find out the source of my chest pains that haven't gone away. I'm not worried much about it - just annoyed that I am starting all over again from the beginning.
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Praying for you as start the testing again.
I often have vivid dreams, but they're usually, well, just... strange. Not particularly happy or sad. I do remember one dream where I woke up euphoric. I still smile whenever I remember that dream. :)
I hope you find some answers for the chest pains!
The title of this post sounds a little sad to me, but you say you are extremely happy.
My mother had chest pains a while back. It was physical (she had to have surgery), but also anxiety.
I'm PRAYING for your health to get back to normal, Simone.
I hope the testing gives you answers and the pain subsides. It's horrible to have pain like that and not know what's going on. Take care and have a great holiday week!
((hugs))
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xo jj