Wednesday, November 14, 2012

The Dream that will Never Be

It was so vivid...my dream. I woke up what tears on my face as I realized that it was a dream that will never be.

It doesn't matter what the dream is to any of you because we all have dreams that we hold on to, wanting to see them unfold. But in my dream, I found an emotion, a contentment and peace that I haven't felt in a very long time. It's not to say that I'm not extremely happy with my life now because I am but....

This was a reminder. A realization. 

It was only a dream to experience the sweetness and the realness at that moment - not to hold on to but to let it go.

Dreams are like our very own television show...created for our eyes only. We know the characters. We feel the emotions. We embrace every moment as it is happening because it matters. Knowing that, I'm surprised I don't go to sleep a lot earlier than I do, so that I can watch my "favorite" dream.

Now that I'm awake, the dream hasn't faded. The tears are still in my eyes as I realize that it was only a dream.

Do you dream dreams that will never happen yet you would like for them to?
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I am so sorry for not visiting you all. I can't describe right now how busy life has been for me. There is a lot going on - good stuff. But then, there are a few not so good stuffs that I'm also having to grab on to. One of those is that I will begin testing once again with a different cardiologist to find out the source of my chest pains that haven't gone away. I'm not worried much about it - just annoyed that I am starting all over again from the beginning.

19 comments:

Linda Myers said...

I've been dreaming recently, and remembering my dreams for the first time in a while. Last night was a sad one. I was at some kind of gathering and felt left out. That hasn't happened in years, but I experienced it vividly while asleep last night.

Brian Miller said...

ugh....sorry that you are still experiencing chest pains...i do have those dreams....and i def understand...but then there are new ones...

Mari said...

I have had those kinds of dreams too.
Praying for you as start the testing again.

Unknown said...

That's wonderful that you're so busy with good things! I'm so glad to hear that.

Lin said...

Oh, Simone, I hope they figure out your health issues once and for all. I'm sure you are ready to end the doctor's visits!

Buckeroomama said...

Praying for you that those chest pains go away and you get a clean bill of health from the tests.

I often have vivid dreams, but they're usually, well, just... strange. Not particularly happy or sad. I do remember one dream where I woke up euphoric. I still smile whenever I remember that dream. :)

Formerly known as Frau said...

I hopped this new doctor finds the cause of your pain...thinking and praying for you. xo

Liz Mays said...

Typically my dreams are not anything I necessarily want to remember, but occasionally I would love to settle back into one.

I hope you find some answers for the chest pains!

Connie said...

Hope you find out the problem with the chest pains. As for dreams, yes I have them but they never made much sense.

Anita said...

I don't remember my dreams beyond the state of waking up, which doesn't bother me because I prefer to daydream - that way I can choose. :)

The title of this post sounds a little sad to me, but you say you are extremely happy.

My mother had chest pains a while back. It was physical (she had to have surgery), but also anxiety.

I'm PRAYING for your health to get back to normal, Simone.

Petula said...

I used to have those dreams a lot in sleep, but not as much now. Funny thing is I have awake dreams. Not daydreams because I totally zone out and have a completely clear picture/vision of what's going to happen or what I want to happen. When I begin to come out of it, tears are welling up in my eyes and are already falling before I'm fully "awake." I'm saddened or disappointed by what I think will never happen. I totally understand.

I hope the testing gives you answers and the pain subsides. It's horrible to have pain like that and not know what's going on. Take care and have a great holiday week!

Veronica Lee said...

Praying for you, dear Simone!

((hugs))

Terra said...

I hope your chest pains are correctly treated or that they just disappear (that would be even nicer). I don't dream things that I wish would happen. When I was a child I dreamed I would have a pony though.

Joanna Jenkins said...

Hi Simone, Stopping by to check in on you. Hope Thanksgiving was terrific and that you're feeling good.

Stop by, I'm having a Christmas Giveaway!

xo jj

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