I wish I could say that this was a joke but it isn't. This time, it isn't me that has the jitters, it's Boo. We talked yesterday, off and on, through my tears and that was the conclusion that has been drawn. Until further notice...there will not be a wedding. Until the timing is right....there will not be a wedding.
Wish I would've had further notice to see all of this coming. But I didn't. I don't understand completely and I've asked him to help me to understand. As much as he's tried, my heart still remains broken.
Yes, he wants to marry me but after having my broken in a billion pieces, I need to take some time to breathe and seek God's wisdom in all of this. I know of no other way to hang on.
He realizes that he stands a chance in losing me. I won't wait until he finally discovers that what he has been waiting for has been here all along.
I love him but as the song says, "Love hurts". The pain will dissipate eventually but in the meantime, all I can do is breathe through it all.